Dearest A,
I loved you much deeply and for far much longer than you ever did. I thought of it literally every second with my constantly dying heart for eons, why!
Why couldn’t I give up on you and be with anyone else just like you did ?
What was I addicted to?
Was it your gaslighting,
Your initial love bombings
Your slow poison of narcissism
Your abusive storms
Your blame games
You breaking every bit of my self-worth Or
My wounded inner child
That chose to trust you
And see in you
The Love you perhaps never had
I no longer blame you
Because I know what you did Was due to your own insecurities
You need help
You need healing Definitely Not hatred !
As I heal the traumas of scars left by you
Deeper than the scars on my body I now see
There was nothing special in you
It was my ability to love and trust
That made you God
But you were oh so very ordinary
I will heal I will also love again
I will be loved too
But this time
Without betraying my boundaries
Without disrespecting my Soul
Without ever thinking of you, again. . . . . !
I waited for you to be back
To hold you, to hug you
To at least, one last time, find my eternal closure in you
But all you gave me were sickening remarks about my character when it was you who cheated on me!
You shall never know
The pain and courage of forgiving someone
Who never apologised
I got really Lucky
Somehow I found my healings, my journey
And I sincerely pray That you find someone too
Lest you keep wounding others
Without realising
That true power lies In giving Love Than Betraying your Love
~ Yours ( once ),
” Full time, part-time, over-time Lover.”
Thank You for coming into my Life and teaching me the most valuable lesson of Self-Love…
We are chasing healing, abundance, magic without believing in Love. Often people are creating checklists and early retirement goals without having any space for Love to breathe, leading to more stress, health issues and most importantly being unjust to self + others.
The very fabric of Cosmos is weaved with Love, it is the Bio Force of the Universe. But the one who is burnt with Fire – how will they ever believe in the warmth of the same Fire.
This is how our generation is bleeding its wounds on each other. Love has the Power to exponentially multiply or depreciate everything you have. It all depends on how you use it. But if one ever desires to be fully content, its important to heal your past traumas, fears, wounds and let Love bloom you. You will be surprised at the potentials, peace and purpose you will explore with you.
You can book personalised Yogic Counselling and Healing sessions with Ilashrei Anand to help with breakup / relationships from root cause. We hope you take your well-being on priority.